That first solo cruise can be frightening, but a necessary part of no longer having that partner to travel with. I went on a 4 nighter as a trial ( my partner and I always cruised, now divorced). I had a good time even though not a terribly outgoing person. My emotional shocker came on formal night, seeing the photographers, couples etc. Formal night was a biggie for us. I did not go to dinner that night. I'm booked for another solo early Dec., but this time I'll not be on the sidelines! God luck in your journey in restructuring your life and thoughts of life.