Still undecided what to do, My mother who has terminal cancer said she wants me to go no matter what . She said I have waited on her all of her life and she wants me to go. At this time she is doing alright. Just to let everyone know what is on my mind each night. You would have to know my mother, she would stay alive for seven days to let me have some pleasure. ( she would be disappointed if I canceled) It is still A dilema for me. My mother was raised during the depression . She knows sorrow and about life. She wants me to have what I haven't experienced in life. She told me tonight go on your cruise, I will stay alive until you get back/ any imput. Posted earlier " what must I do"