Todd, at some point in all of our lives, we have been where you are now. It seems like nothing will ever be right again, that nothing will ever feel good. There are times that we need to just turn into ourselves and that is all we can deal with. After a time, you begin to need to reach out again; and you realize that there are others out there who can relate and empathize with you.
OK, I can admit, been there and done that. I hope you know that I (and everyone else here at CM) are there for you when and if you want our help and support.
We love you, man!